February 2012
16 posts
Watchannemarsen:
I made my first Los Angeles dance video to Ellen two nights ago on the Hollywood Blvd. Walk of Fame to Lily Allen’s “The Fear”… just finished editing it at 5am this morning! http://vimeo.com/37252499 Again, trying to do what I can while recovering from my knee injury… VERY SPECIAL thanks to Ray Chao & Stephanie Slocum for helping me shoot :-D!! If you like this video, please...
minds/job/universe
On Saturday Corey and I stayed in and watched “Into the Universe with Stephen Hawking.” The innate nature of these shows is to condense years of complicated research and technical physics terms into a more common place language. But, I’m grateful for their ability to “dumb down” some of the science because it is so incredibly fascinating. As the narrator spoke for...
Sunday mornings are laying in bed, mostly.
'Holiday' post on love
It’s Valentines day. In previous years, I cared about doing something special and I felt conflicted on how to deal with the holiday — ignore it, or embrace it? This year more than ever, my heart is so nicely balanced. Imagine this: last week I was incredibly stressed between planning for an auction we were having at work, to the emotional turbulence of realizing my roommates/friends...
I miss my friends →
On pinterest
For a month or so I have been on Pintrest. Mainly I see a lot of generic things, such as cutesy “motivational” sayings, wedding ideas, crafts (some are kind of cool) and other very generic feminized photos. But there’s one thing more than the others that bother me the most: the “exercise” tips. I am so disgusted with both the titles of these tips and what kind of...
January 2012
15 posts
I’ve been thinking a lot about the mind and the body (probably because I am reading this guy’s book on the brain and phantom limbs). Lately I have been having trouble running. I know I have some what of a deadline coming up - by March 24th I need to be able to run 13.2 miles. Usually when I’m running, I don’t have a set distance. In the summer time I keep adding more and...
On drugs and states of being
Last night I was seriously contemplating about the illegal status of drugs. What if drugs were in fact a mind-altering substance that brought us to a higher level of being? I recognize the issues with addiction and possible health issues. Yet, isn’t everything capable of being a form of unhealthy addiction? Some of which have worse health impacts than others - ie, over or under eating,...
On sexuality and teenagers
Last night I went to an Avicii concert. I was told ahead of time to wear something neon. If you know me, you know that my color pallet for clothes is pretty neutral. I hadn’t expected to see what I saw last night. Let me first preface myself with saying two things: first, I think clothing can be used as a form of expression, especially in a concert setting; second, I am a feminist (I really...
AllSaints FW2012/Emptiness
Saturday and Sunday I walked around Westlake. For non-Seattlites, Westlake is a shopping area lined with both higher-end stores and affordable chains. On Saturday I was on the escalator in Nordstrom going up to the “special occasion” and “individuals” section of the Women’s department. I was staring down at all the shoes, displayed so perfectly on the floor below. It...
Plans
Such a good weekend. It’s strange for me to make plans and ideas of what I’m going to do after my LVC year, because I know nothing ever turns out how I expect it to be. I can plan and make my lists, but something else happens, and suddenly I’m somewhere new. This weekend was spent entirely with my boyfriend (and our other various friends). Mainly we stayed on the couch watching...
DSHS II
As I waited in line at Department of Health and Social Services (DSHS, where one can apply and receive ‘food stamps’ now called EBT or Electronic Benefits Transfer) office, frustrated that the computers were down and the hours are horrible, I noticed the only other white person in the waiting room was a college aged male wearing an AmeriCorps jacket. Some people were old, some were...
On the train after the rain
That moment when you are standing on the train watching the city beneath you. And you see a young mother on a damp street waiting to cross the road with her baby. You remember the party you were at two weeks ago with friends from your hometown. It hits you how different they look. And then you have to sit down because you suddenly feel so far from a place you call home. And your body feels distant...
December 2011
20 posts
koru/rebirth II
This year can be broken down into phases. This time last year was tumultuous. I don’t need to go into details. January through May was a time of fear, focus, and uncertainty. I was obsessed with my studies and doing well. From my gym class to an elective of photography, I wanted to learn as much as I could before I had to leave this safety on a hill of Northfield, Minnesota. Simultaneously I...
Quick notes
Not only was Christmas close to perfect because I shared laughter, a standard Jersey jewish meal with my family, played cards with my family, and listened to some wonderful jazz at church — but tomorrow I get to see my boyfriend and meet his family. And the day after that, we get to see my family and friends.
I feel so humbled by all the wonderful people in my life. Nothing like focusing...
Holiday routine/home traditions.
It’s taken us a while to get to this point where coming home is actually a pleasant experience. Maybe it’s the euphoria of feeling somewhat accomplished, somewhat different from the last time I was here. Now, my friends/acquaintances are across the state and country. They have different interests and they look hungry for more. Are we changed, or just more of who we were always meant to...
“What is that feeling when you’re driving away from people and they recede...”
– On The Road
Rough story start
Started a new rough short story out of no where. In my head, somewhere, I’m going to get to talk about getting elevated, or thinking one is being elevated. I’m not sure what the plot is yet, but here’s the rough, rough story start:
Elevated, the Chrysler building a chard in a velvet sky. 4 AM, Laura and I, on the roof of her Bronx apartment, if it could even be called that. A few...
danceingnaked asked: questions: F, I, T
No one ever asks me questions.
A. Available:
B. Birthday:
C. Crushing on:
D. Drink you last had:
E. Easiest person to talk to:
F. Favorite song:
G. Grossest memory:
H. Hometown:
I. In love with:
J. Jealous of:
K. Killed someone:
L. Longest friendship:
M. Milkshake flavour:
N. Number of siblings:
O. One wish:
P. Person who you last called:
Q. Question your asked the most:
R. Reason to smile:
S. Song you last sang:
T. Time you wake up:
U. Underwear colour:
V. Violent moment:
W. Worst habit:
X. X-ray you had:
Y. Your last time you cried:
Z. Zodiac sign:
City/relations
Being in a relationship in a city is… fun. There is something about how much we interact with our environment and people around us. When using public transportation a couple is in their own world (giggling, or talking, or holding hands — whatever it is a couple does) yet they are forced to be in someone else’s presence. Especially in Seattle where many of the marginalized people...
A list of things I'm really hating right now
Cancer
Food stamp program ie DSHS
In line at Safeway
Today at Safeway there was a family behind me who could not pay for their groceries. I followed them into the parking lot, wondering if it was presumptuous to tell them that I work for an emergency food distributor. The husband was putting the baby in his car seat and the other child was waiting for his turn to get buckled in to his seat. I told them where I work and they asked if there were long...
This week
There’s certain things I’m obsessed with in art and writing. I look for elements that reflect on humanity and the human condition. I look for ambiguity and anything that shows that life is not made up of dualities. But, then weeks like this one happen, and it makes me seriously amazed at the unexpected and unknown. I attribute meaning to events (I can’t help it). It’s been...
Your standard end of the year reflections
December is naturally the month when I can’t help but reflect on the past year. Last night I talked with Leila for a very long time on the phone. She reminded me of my growth over the past two years. Where I came from, where I am now. I feel like I keep growing, like some Alice in Wonderland in a small house with limbs jetting out of windows and doors. But, instead of a house, more like an...
