December 2011
20 posts
koru/rebirth II
This year can be broken down into phases. This time last year was tumultuous. I don’t need to go into details. January through May was a time of fear, focus, and uncertainty. I was obsessed with my studies and doing well. From my gym class to an elective of photography, I wanted to learn as much as I could before I had to leave this safety on a hill of Northfield, Minnesota. Simultaneously I...
Quick notes
Not only was Christmas close to perfect because I shared laughter, a standard Jersey jewish meal with my family, played cards with my family, and listened to some wonderful jazz at church — but tomorrow I get to see my boyfriend and meet his family. And the day after that, we get to see my family and friends.
I feel so humbled by all the wonderful people in my life. Nothing like focusing...
Holiday routine/home traditions.
It’s taken us a while to get to this point where coming home is actually a pleasant experience. Maybe it’s the euphoria of feeling somewhat accomplished, somewhat different from the last time I was here. Now, my friends/acquaintances are across the state and country. They have different interests and they look hungry for more. Are we changed, or just more of who we were always meant to...
“What is that feeling when you’re driving away from people and they recede...”
– On The Road
Rough story start
Started a new rough short story out of no where. In my head, somewhere, I’m going to get to talk about getting elevated, or thinking one is being elevated. I’m not sure what the plot is yet, but here’s the rough, rough story start:
Elevated, the Chrysler building a chard in a velvet sky. 4 AM, Laura and I, on the roof of her Bronx apartment, if it could even be called that. A few...
danceingnaked asked: questions: F, I, T
No one ever asks me questions.
A. Available:
B. Birthday:
C. Crushing on:
D. Drink you last had:
E. Easiest person to talk to:
F. Favorite song:
G. Grossest memory:
H. Hometown:
I. In love with:
J. Jealous of:
K. Killed someone:
L. Longest friendship:
M. Milkshake flavour:
N. Number of siblings:
O. One wish:
P. Person who you last called:
Q. Question your asked the most:
R. Reason to smile:
S. Song you last sang:
T. Time you wake up:
U. Underwear colour:
V. Violent moment:
W. Worst habit:
X. X-ray you had:
Y. Your last time you cried:
Z. Zodiac sign:
City/relations
Being in a relationship in a city is… fun. There is something about how much we interact with our environment and people around us. When using public transportation a couple is in their own world (giggling, or talking, or holding hands — whatever it is a couple does) yet they are forced to be in someone else’s presence. Especially in Seattle where many of the marginalized people...
A list of things I'm really hating right now
Cancer
Food stamp program ie DSHS
In line at Safeway
Today at Safeway there was a family behind me who could not pay for their groceries. I followed them into the parking lot, wondering if it was presumptuous to tell them that I work for an emergency food distributor. The husband was putting the baby in his car seat and the other child was waiting for his turn to get buckled in to his seat. I told them where I work and they asked if there were long...
This week
There’s certain things I’m obsessed with in art and writing. I look for elements that reflect on humanity and the human condition. I look for ambiguity and anything that shows that life is not made up of dualities. But, then weeks like this one happen, and it makes me seriously amazed at the unexpected and unknown. I attribute meaning to events (I can’t help it). It’s been...
Your standard end of the year reflections
December is naturally the month when I can’t help but reflect on the past year. Last night I talked with Leila for a very long time on the phone. She reminded me of my growth over the past two years. Where I came from, where I am now. I feel like I keep growing, like some Alice in Wonderland in a small house with limbs jetting out of windows and doors. But, instead of a house, more like an...
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